June 2006 - Posts

An ever elusive truth

I'm at MIT for a very specific reason. I'm here to learn how to understand and explore the physical universe. I'm here to learn physics. In particular, I am here to learn about particle physics and astrophysics. Why am I here to learn physics? After contemplating the many problems within our society to which I could apply myself to assist in solving, I have decided that the only thing which holds meaning for me is the quest for the ultimate truth - the underlying rules that govern our universe. Nothing comes close to being as meaningful as that. Not the uneducated minorities in America, not the war-weary Iraqis, not the millions of Africans suffering from AIDS, and certainly not the rest of us. We all die. But truth...facts that exist outside of our perception...those are irrevocably eternal. Imagine discovering something eternal. Human emotions die with us. I may love people in my lifetime, but when I die and they die and we all die, that love dies. It's inevitable. It's impermanent. Of course, one may say that the actual act of knowing the universe will also die when we do, but for the briefest of moments, we knew. We beheld immaculate eternity and were a part of it. Knowing the universe intimately is loving the universe intimately. I want to make passionate love to the universe. I want to know its deepest, darkest secrets, and I want them to be mine....

I can hear people coughing under their breaths, "nerd!" but, you know what, EAT ME. It's important. And you should realize it. It just takes some thinking.

Everything is about physics. Everything can be reduced to physics. Everything began and ends with physics. Everything that occurs is because of physics. Couples say there is "chemistry" between them, but no, it is physics that they share. The atoms that form the molecules that interact on amazingly complex levels within their bodies and between their bodies are governed by the rules of physics. Indeed, the so-called "emotions" that they feel are simply electric impulses, the flow of electrons. Of course, it is far more complex than just that, but it can only be explained truthfully through physics. Biology, chemistry, history, literature, and all other human exploits are all derivative of the very primal, very basic laws of physics. Some might ask, what about mathematics? It is a completely abstract construct, hardly based in reality. Math is the tool we use to discover and describe physics. It exists because it must exist for physics to be able to govern the universe. This brings me to the main point of this post.

We've all heard of string theory. It's the most publicized theory in the limited coverage physics receives in the media. It promises to be the most radical, but most explanatory theory of the future. It has been in development for quite some time, and most particle physicsts subscribe to the idea of string theory. However, like with any theory, there are serious problems with it. I can't hope to be able to understand them. I only know that they exist. I have also recently found out that there is now a rising anti-string theory sentiment among physicists. In the book by Columbia University mathematician Peter Woit, "Not Even Wrong," due in September, he calls the theory "a disaster for physics." He's not alone. Now I'm taking from an article from the Wall Street Journal, which tends to have conservative leanings, so keep that in mind. '"When it comes to extending our knowledge of the laws of nature, we have made no real headway" in 30 years, writes physicist Lee Smolin of the Perimeter Institute in Waterloo, Canada, in his book, "The Trouble with Physics," also due in September. "It's called hitting the wall."' After reading through the entire article, I've come to believe one thing: that it's hopeless. Every time we come up with some rules that seem to explain phenomena that occur in nature, they turn out to be wrong. Things turn out to be far more complicated than that. And it keeps happening. I get sick just thinking about what the truth might actually be. It might be such a complex and ugly reality that there is no way, even after millions of years of research that we will have the ability to perceive any semblance of the veritable truth. It is Heisenberg's Principle to the ultimate extreme - the harder we try to find out the truth, the harder it tries to elude us. I don't want to die like Einstein did, frustrated by many fruitless years of searching for an ever elusive truth - a truth that I feel will never be discovered. Not by the brilliant minds of today, not by the ones of tomorrow, not by me, not by anyone.

Global Warming and Congress

You've seen it in the news, I know you have. Congress finally listens to scientists. After disputing evidence presented to them by Michael Mann, a prominent climatologist, last year, Congress commissioned an investigation into the findings of Mann's team of researchers. The committee convened by the National Academy of Sciences concluded in a report released Thursday that "the Earth is warmer today than at any point the last 400 years, and likely the last millennium." The committee also said its findings generally support the research by Mann and his colleagues. The sharpest critic of Mann, Texas Congressman Joe Barton, conceded that "we recognize the globe is warming," but wanted to make sure that the "numbers add up." Indeed, they do.

It's appropriate that while 90% of the scientific community understands and acknowledges global warming and man's contribution to it, the general public is highly resistive to changing their personal behaviors for the good of ourselves and our home planet. Recently, Stephen Hawking spoke in China, warning us that man needed to colonize other planets if he hopes to survive as a species. He spoke not only about the dangers of global warming, but also of deadly wars waged by nuclear armaments and bio-weapons. While we create unrest and ill-will in the Middle East - a part of the world which is already rife with political and social tension - our exponentially increasing usage of CO2 emitting technologies slowly but steadily turns our global climate into its own hotbed of unrest. Imagine: over the next fifty years, millions and millions of Chinese people will be buying cars. In addition to the overwhelming output of industrialized nations (especially the U.S.), these emerging nations like China and India will only increase our output. The earth has always been good to us. Let's be good to it. Let's acknowledge global warming. Let's acknowledge it's partially our fault. Let's agree that even if it turns out to not be as bad as it could be, it's always best to be aware of and take care of our home.

Insanely Fast Processors

Am I excited? That's an understatement - I'm having intermittent orgasms. IBM researchers, in conjunction with researchers at Georgia Institute of Technology, have created a transistor that is much faster than today's processors. Whereas today's processors have yet to reach speeds of 4 GHz, the processor at IBM's laboratories reached 500 GHz when it was kept at near absolute zero temperatures. At room temperature, it ran at 300 GHz speeds. Its anticipated use is in wireless networks. They would run blazingly fast, allowing, for example, DVD quality movies to be downloaded in 5 seconds. This is awesome news. Can't wait!

Debunking the college myth

I’d like to continue debunking the college myth. The more I think about the issue and the more I begin to prepare for my future and the more I think about the way other people have lived their lives, the less I can vouch for the merits of a college education.

People are inundated with choices and decisions. Primarily, they wonder how to live their lives, how to achieve their goals, and how to be happy. There are many different paths to these things, few involving a college education. There is one type of person that greatly benefits from a college education. It is the type of person who wants the assurance of money in the bank, a comfortable home, a wife and kids, and plenty of money saved up for retirement. It is also the type of person who values a dignified, respected career – someone who wishes for the respect of his peers. Essentially, I’m talking about middle-class Americans. They are best served by a college education.

What about the rest of us? College can be useful, but we have to make it useful. It isn’t useful on its own. That is, we must use a college education and the college environment to its fullest potential. We must explore the surrounding city, talk to people in our field, attend lectures and seminars provided by university services, and take action beyond completing the required courses for a degree. For middle-class Americans, a degree is enough. It’ll get you your job. But for people who want to become masters of their craft, they must make it a part of their being.

People with the desire to be masters of their craft don’t necessarily need a college education. Many have such an overwhelming desire, perhaps even necessity, to become masters that they give themselves a much better education than they could have had in college. College only serves as a guide – a kind of prod for those who are less likely to learn on their own. People like Woody Allen or Michael Dell feel caged by the restrictions of the slow and regulated process of fulfilling the requirements of a degree plan. They want to learn and then to create.

In addition, people are so confused about who they are and what they want that a college degree doesn’t help them in the least once they figure themselves out and what they want. Two perfect examples are my parents. My dad spent several years in a Mexican seminary learning about theology in anticipation of being a priest. He has a master’s degree in theology. Forty years later, what is he doing? He’s immensely happy working as a maintenance worker in rural North Texas. He has a wife (been married for twenty-some odd years), two brilliant kids, a nice home with a big backyard, and a new Chevy truck that sports a killer sound system. My mother spent four years in college in Mexico, graduating with a bachelor’s degree in business administration. Not once has she used it. Upon coming to America with my dad, she became a nursing care worker. Now she is a middle school teacher. She teaches Spanish to 7th and 8th graders. My cousin Martha went to UT Arlington. She left after a couple of years. One of the wisest people I know when it comes to American cinema, she is a district manager for Blockbuster. Did she need her college degree? No.

The reality is this: some people have a spark for life. They have a desire to become something. They aren’t lazy. They might not be incredibly brilliant, but they are competent. And they care enough about themselves to try just that little bit harder. It is the difference between that intelligent but lazy shift manager and the shy but industrious rookie. Ten years down the road, he might have a college degree under his belt, but he’s shuffling papers apathetically for local business. She, on the other hand, learned on the job how to become a commanding presence in business and started her own ice-cream business and lives happily selling ice cream to children and their families. She might not have gone to college – but she knew that nothing can replace the personal nurturing of one’s talents, faith and confidence in oneself, and closely paid attention to one’s own happiness.

Am I saying education is unimportant? Not at all. I value education above just about everything. It is the key to reaching one’s own happiness. My argument is that there are many ways to become educated. Give me a library card, and I’ll never need to go to college. Once we have decided that we have some purpose, some meaning in life, it is only a matter of time before we act. Some, like me, might go to college. Others might become apprentices. Still others might go out into the world to discover their paths on their own. No path is “better” than any other. It is hopelessly wrong to judge people who take “unconventional” paths in respect to the path one has already taken. It is even worse to believe that the source of one’s own happiness is also the source of everyone else’s happiness. One can only have faith that said people are walking paths in search of their own happiness.

The Path to Happiness

How immensely things have changed. In high school, I touted a message of redemption and salvation. It wasn’t the message of God’s salvation. No, it was the salvation of a college education. I told anyone who would listen to me that to realize his dreams, he needed a college education. What a lie that is. It’s taken a year in college for me to realize that. College isn’t salvation. Salvation comes from within. The most brilliant minds of our generation are college dropouts - Bill Gates, Harvard drop-out, Woody Allen, NYU drop-out, Michael Dell, UT drop-out. College is for the meek. It’s for the unambitious. It’s for the uninspired. It’s for the people who want to safeguard themselves against the obstacles in life. It’s for those who don’t want to face the brutality of reality. For, when you realize that you’ve only got one life, you panic. Am I doing things right? Am I being happy? Am I preparing for my future happiness? How do I become happy? How do I maintain my happiness? College is a delusion. It’s a fictional pause in a reality that is always playing. During college, we maintain our childhood immaturity amidst other children who have as little idea of who they are as we do. 

I say, take action. Think about what it means to be YOU. And be yourself. Express yourself and your ideas. That’s how you become happy. And if misery makes you happy - then go for it. Be miserable, and be happy. Because no matter how long you think about it; no matter how many times you switch your majors; no matter how many times you rethink your career, time won’t stop; life won’t stop; and, if you spend your time trying to become all the different things that could make you happy, you’ll spend your entire life trying, without ever experiencing a bit of happiness.

Note: The point of this post isn’t to create blanket statements. These words may resound greatly in the minds of some people. Others might find them completely meaningless. My hope is that persons who are torn between creating a secure life and creating a truly happy life realize that living securely at the expense of happiness isn’t worth it. Don’t go to college because you don’t know how to live your life and you need answers or more time. Go to college to learn the skills necessary to make your happiness into your reality.